I thought I would check in on everyone.
Many of us have applied for The National Redress Scheme – for those who were sexually abused in institutional or organisational systems at some point in their life. Many of us have not applied out of fear and shame. Out of not wanting to confront past traumas. And for many other reasons. We all come from a variety of sex-negative situations that have profoundly affected us differently. Our commonality is from shame, emotional and physical pain. We are all interconnected in some way from these experiences. Whether it be yourself, a family member, a friend, a lover or someone you just know.
I have recently started the process of redress myself. It was certainly not embodied or healing for me. I felt rather administrative and detached from it all. In my circumstances, it was more like a battle. In which I am sure many others feel the same. One that has been ongoing for the last 25 years now. I wonder if such processes are healing at all. Whether it would have been therapeutic to make more space for embodiment. At the end of it all, I have to realise that some form of compensation will help me continue to work on myself. By affording this opportunity, I can also assist others who have experienced such traumas.
You might be a casualty of sexual abuse. Or maybe you have been part of a casualties journey. I would like to pose a few check-in questions: Have you felt empowered during this journey? How are you feeling? What’s the process been like for you? What has this felt like in your body? Have you felt heard? Did it feel shameful? Have you managed to work through shame? Are you ok? Do you need anything?
As I check in with you today. I feel from a sense of usefulness. How can I be useful to others in similar situations such as myself? So here I am. My door and heart are wide open.
Love and peace.